Its been a while well maybe a long time for me I even or probably cant recall it anymore. The break up has been and always will be a difficult situation for me to handle it, I'm weak? comeOn mann Peter you got to stand up for us, for your god damn dignity and pride that all men should fucking have right. There is a lot of pretty women out there isn't it? yeah that's the most probably the very common things that I'm gonna hear from my mate right. But the fact is not though....since then, since we decided to break up i never tell anyone about it. Why? maybe it because I cant face the truth that there is no more about her anymore even though we are still a good friend but...its too difficult to describe about how i really feel.
Of course people asked about my relationship but damn i just cant face them properly and tell them the truth about us. The only things i always said was "our relationship is too complicated", the break up things never split out of my mouth.
A flashback of her recently came back to me, a smell of that perfume "In love again" that she always put on her body, its turn me on every times when ever i can smell it, feeling like she is really there spraying her perfume beside me. The smell is still there inside my nose ever since then from the very first time i smelled it.
You know "life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get" - Tom Hanks (Forrest Gump) and I thinks that's truth. You might get the bitter dark chocolate or even a sweet caramel chocolate whose knows right. Life is the same too...sooo maybe its times to face the truth Peter.