Friday, November 27, 2009

move on with our life?

...I never felt this lonely before, not this lonely. The feeling of loneliness and the feeling of missing something that I feel like I haven't do it good enough and to just simply let it go and get a move on with my life. People said "lets move on with our life ok"? I felt like I got a slap big time on my face, its sound like "you are so useless", "I want to start over with someone else"....I seriously felt like that.

Maybe really, seriously and probably she deserve something thats better for her huh, Im only just another ordinary person. Perhaps people described me as that if "you are what you eat" I should be like a sandwiches. Why? maybe I'm "easy" or perhaps "simple" just like a sandwiches huh.

Why people always wanna do something so complicated anyway, life its so simple and i never expected THAT much in life.

....I really miss you thats all

Thursday, November 12, 2009

summer snow

Its summer snow in the deep blue sea.
I try to touch but it fades away.
It must be a dream I will never get,
just like my love that's crying for you.
If there were something not to change forever,
we could feel it deep in our heart.
Today is over with a million tears, still everyone has a wish to live.
Oh, I do believe everlasting love and destiny to meet you again.
I feel a pain I can hardly stand. All I can do is loving you

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Friday, November 6, 2009

men are like rubber bands, woman are like waves

Dedicate to all the men and woman out there, who are trying so hard to make their relationship work. Thanks for "men are from mars, woman are from venus" book. This is only some of the part in the book and somehow it got me very interested and i wanna share it with you all.

Men are like rubber bands. When they pull away, they can stretch only so far before they come springing back. A rubber band is the perfect metaphor to understand the male intimacy cycle. This cycle involves getting close, pulling a way, and then getting close again.

Most woman are surprised to realize that even when a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer. Men instinctively feel this urge to pull away. It is not decision or choice. It just happens. It is neither his fault nor her fault. It is a natural cycle.

Woman misinterpret a man's pulling away because generally a woman pulls away for a different reasons. She pulls back when she doesn't trust him to understand her feelings, when she has been hurt and is afraid of being hurt again, or when he has done something wrong and disappointed her.

Certainly a man pull away for the same reasons, but he will pull away even if she has done nothing wrong. He may love and trust her, and then suddenly he begins to pull away. Like a stretched rubber band, he will distance himself and then come back all on his own.

A man pulls away to fulfill his need for independence or autonomy. When he has fully stretched away, then instantly he will come springing back. When he has fully separated, then suddenly he will feel his need for love and intimacy again. Automatically he will be more motivated to give his love and receive the love he needs. When a man spring back, he picks up the relationship at whatever degree of intimacy it was when he stretched away. He doesn't feel any need for a period of getting reacquainted again......

A woman is like wave. When she feels loved her self esteem rises and falls in a wave motion. When she is feeling really good, she will reach a peak, but then suddenly her mood may change and her wave crashes down. This crash is temporary. After she reaches bottom suddenly her mood will shift and she will again feel good about herself. Automatically her wave begins to rise back up.

When a woman's wave rises she feels she has an abundance of love to give, but when it falls she feels her inner emptiness and needs to be filled up with love. This time of bottoming out is a time for emotional housecleaning.

If she has suppressed any negative feeling or denied herself in order to be more loving on the upswing of her wave, then on the downswing she begins to experience these negative feelings and unfulfilled needs. During this down time she especially needs to talk about problems and be heard and understood.

This experience of "going down" is like going down into a dark well. When a woman goes into her "well" she is consciously sinking into her unconscious self, into darkness and diffused feeling. She may suddenly experience a host of unexplained emotions and vague feelings. She may feel hopeless, thinking she is all alone or unsupported. But soon after she reaches the bottom, if she fees loved and supported, she will automatically start to feel better. As suddenly as she may have crashed, she will automatically rise up and again radiate love in her relationship.

A woman's ability to give and receive love in her relationships is generally a reflection of how she is feeling about herself. When she is not feeling as good about herself, she is unable to be as accepting and appreciative of her partner. At her down times, she tends to be overwhelmed or more emotionally reactive. When her wave hits bottom she is more vulnerable and needs more love. It is crucial that her partner understand what she needs a these times, otherwise he may make unreasonable demands.

Alright that it, no more typing hahaha. There is a lot more stuff about this very uselful book though but i guess you guys have to go and dig some at a second hand book store though cuz the book was published in 2002.

Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.....

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Move it slow lyrics

Another one of my favorite song from the original soundtracks "save the last dance(2001)". The lyrics is wrote by Kevon Edmonds, one of the touching and damn sexiest song i ever heard. Even though I'm not much or yet into love anymore or in anytime soon but hahaha this is for you my always beloved, you will be always in my heart...you feel me right>>>

Move It slow

I'm thinking 'bout your body baby
Wanna love you in so many ways
The way you move it all around
Makes me wanna love you down
Contemplating making love to you
Scented candles and some bubbles too
Come and have a private dance with me
So I can stare at your body baby

[1] - You can have my money and
You can have my car keys baby
Max out all my credit cards
Till you look just like a star
I'll pay all your bills
Tell me baby what's the deal
Why I'm so into you?

[2] - Move it slow
Make sweet lovin' to me
Let it flow
Ooh you're looking so sexy to me
Lose control
You don't know what you're doing to me
With my eyes and my mind
I forget about it

We're sitting here sippin' on Dom Pérignon
Watching you it really turns me on
And that negligee that you're wearing is tight
When you take it off, all I can say is my, my, my
From your head down to your toes, sexy
Such a beautiful sight to see
One look in your eyes and I'm hypnotized
The cutest little thing I've ever seen, you can...

[Repeat 1]

[Repeat 2 (2x)]

There's no greater fantasy
Than the one that I share with you
You really got a hold on me
I'm taken by the way that you move
I love what I see
That sexy, sweet body
I'll take you away from here
Make us feel reality, oh

[Repeat 2 (2x)]

Bounce for me, bounce for me
Move it all around for me
Shake it baby, shake it baby
Up and down
Move it to the left
Move it to the right
Work the body, work the body baby, baby
Bounce for me, bounce for me
Move it all around for me
Shake it baby, shake it baby
Up and down
Move it to the left
Now move it to the right
Work the body baby, work the body baby, oh

[Repeat 2 till end]

You got to have a little faith....

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Siam (Bangkok) system trams

ok...here is something that is very interesting about Bangkok system trams, let me take you back to the year of 1893. Yes 1893, 116 years ago. Have you people ever wonder how Doc Brown and Marty McFly in "Back to the future" movie can travel back to the past (future)? I wish I can set the system on my car and set the date back to the year of 1893!!, classis indeed.

thanks to and the magic of Bing translator

"Bangkok capital of Siam system trams are open from 21 February 1893, which considered tram electric first in Asia from traditional previously used horses and La drag car refrigerator, replaced by Van made with electric power system size are twenty horsepower electric system used for trams as system operated by the company Short Electric Railway Company City Cleveland USA Bangkok which currently have a citizen approximately nine hundred thousand people have a tram to 7 calls by pointing to the different points.

1. Bnag Kho Laem
2. Sam San
3. Dusit
4. Bang Sue
5. Hua Lamphong
6. Silom
7. Pathum Wan (lumpini)

All trams as a single table by the work in the range 1/4 miles wide table 1 meter and most car table embedded in the floor pavement some range only embedded on the concrete road and have rights, trams run right before while the Cabinet trams all 54 bogie van as dual motor with 28 van and car head movements which drag 50 cars each cars have 40 HP can carry 60 people a seat 36 people standing 24 people. Also have the tank bogie trams with 2 type of passenger seat 1. is an open and 2. is an airy with glass close. The body of most trams are produced in Thailand and only 5 bogie are imported from England. Color of trams which contains 2 matching color is yellow to brown, yellow with green, yellow with red and black with green. On September 30 1968 Tram2 the last line of the Bangkok aborted and be replaced by bus.

That is a fraction of one in the history of electric tram, which makes Bangkok becomes cities with prosperity not allergic to countries in Europe, some countries in the same."



















Monday, August 24, 2009

A flashback of her

Its been a while well maybe a long time for me I even or probably cant recall it anymore. The break up has been and always will be a difficult situation for me to handle it, I'm weak? comeOn mann Peter you got to stand up for us, for your god damn dignity and pride that all men should fucking have right. There is a lot of pretty women out there isn't it? yeah that's the most probably the very common things that I'm gonna hear from my mate right. But the fact is not though....since then, since we decided to break up i never tell anyone about it. Why? maybe it because I cant face the truth that there is no more about her anymore even though we are still a good friend but...its too difficult to describe about how i really feel.

Of course people asked about my relationship but damn i just cant face them properly and tell them the truth about us. The only things i always said was "our relationship is too complicated", the break up things never split out of my mouth.

A flashback of her recently came back to me, a smell of that perfume "In love again" that she always put on her body, its turn me on every times when ever i can smell it, feeling like she is really there spraying her perfume beside me. The smell is still there inside my nose ever since then from the very first time i smelled it.

You know "life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get" - Tom Hanks (Forrest Gump) and I thinks that's truth. You might get the bitter dark chocolate or even a sweet caramel chocolate whose knows right. Life is the same too...sooo maybe its times to face the truth Peter.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

The good really die young RIP to Michael Jackson

In the late afternoon of Thursday 25th of June 2009. The king of pop - Michael Jackson past away peacefully but then leave the world with a sorrow and shock. I guess "The good die young" is a sadness thing i never want to say but the fact is really true..isn't it?. well RIP to you MJ.

In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you be there?
In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustration

In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions

In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of
Another tomorrow
I’ll never let you part
For you’re always in my heart
Will you be there?

Michael Jackson


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Monday, May 18, 2009

All out of love - Air supply (original)

I'm lying alone, with my head on the phone
thinking of you 'til it hurts!
I know you hurt to, but what else can we do?
Tormented and torn apart!

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart,
for times when my life seems so low!
It would make me believe, what tomorrow could bring,
when today doesn't really know, doesn't really know!

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you!
I know you were right, believing for so long.
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, to say that I was so wrong!

I want you to come back, and carry me home,
away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now,
and said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day,
please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone!

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you!
I know you were right, believing for so long.
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, to say that I was so wrong!

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you!
I know you were right, believing for so long.
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, I know I was so wrong!

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you!
I know you were right, believing for so long.
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, I know I was so wrong!

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you!
I know you were right, believing for so long.
I'm all out of love, what am I without you?
I can't be too late, to say that I was so wrong!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

KISS

A KISS IS A PLEASANT REMINDER THAT TWO HEADS ARE BETTER THAN ONE. KISSING IS LIKE DRINKING SALTED WATER, YOU DRINK AND YOUR THIRST INCREASES. A KISS IS SOMETHING YOU CAN NOT GIVE WITHOUT TAKING AND CAN NOT TAKE WITHOUT GIVING. A KISS IS NEVER A BAD KISS UNLESS IT’S AN UNWANTED KISS. I WOULD RATHER HAVE HAD ONE BREATH OF HER HAIR, ONE KISS FROM HER MOUTH, ONE TOUCH OF HER HAND, THAN ETERNITY WITHOUT IT. A KISS THAT IS NEVER TASTED IS FOREVER AND EVER WASTED. WHAT IS KISSES MEAN? KISS ON HAND = I ADORE YOU KISS ON CHEEK = LETS B FRIENDS KISS ON NECK = I WANT YOU KISS ON LIPS = I LOVE YOU KISS ANYWHERE ELES = ….LETS NOT GET CARRIED AWAY! HOLLYWOOD IS A PLACE WHERE THEY WILL PAY YOU A THOUSAND DOLLARS FOR A KISS AND FIFTY CENTS FOR YOUR SOUL. PEOPLE WHO THROW KISSES ARE HOPELESSY LAZY. SOME THINGS I NEVER LEARNED TO LIKE, I DON’T LIKE TO KISS BABIES, THOUGH I DIDN’T MIND KISSING THEIR MOTHERS. A KISS IS A LOVELY TRICK, DESIGNED BY NATURE, TO STOP WORDS WHEN SPEECH BECOMES SUPERFLUOUS. THE FIRST KISS IS STOLEN BY THE MAN, THE LAST IS BEGGED BY THE WOMAN. KISSING IS A MEANS OF GETTING TWO PEOPLE SO CLOSE TOGETHER THAT THEY CANT SEE ANYTING WRONG WITH EACH OTHER. ANY MAN WHO CAN DRIVE SAFELY WHILE KISSING A PRETTY GIRL IS SIMPLY NOT GIVING THE KISS THE ATTENTION IT DESERVES. HIGH HEELS WERE INVENTED BY A WOMAN WHO HAD BEEN KISSED ON THE FOREHEAD. TO A WOMAN THE FIRST KISS IS JUST THE END OF THE BIGINING BUT TO A MAN IT IS THE BEGINNING OF THE END. A MAN SNATCHES THE FIRST KISS, PLEADS FOR THE SECOND, DEMANDS THE THIRD, TAKES THE FOURTH, ACCEPTS THE FIFTH AND ENDURES ALL THE REST. MARRIAGE IS THE MIRACLE THAT TRANSFORMS A KISS FROM A PLEASURE INTO A DUTY. IT TAKES A LOT OF EXPERIENCE FOR A GIRL TO KISS LIKE A BEGINER. STOLEN KISSES REQUIRE AN ACCOMPLICE. “WHERE SHOULD ONE USE PERFUME?” A YOUNG WOMAN ASKED. “WHEREVER ONE WANTS TO BE KISSED,” I SAID. YOU HAVE TO KISS AN AWFUL LOT OF FROGS BEFORE YOU FIND A PRINCE. THE SOUL THAT CAN SPEAK THROUGH THE EYES, CAN ALSO KISS WITH A GAZE. WOMAN STILL REMAMBER THE FIRST KISS AFTER MEN HAVE FORGOTTEN THE LAST. KISSES THAT ARE EASILY OBTAINED ARE EASILY FORGOTTEN. WE LIKE TO RENEW ACQUAINTANCES. WE FRENCEMAN, WE WILL KISS A MAN WE HAVEN’T SEEN FOR FIVE YEARS OR A GIRL WE HAVEN’T SEEN FOR FIVE MINUITE. I WASN’T KISSING HER, I WAS WHISPERING INTO HER MOUTH.

thanks to: FULLSTOP PUBLISHING LIMITED PARTNERSHIP, YOU GUYS REALLY REALLY DID EAPLAINED A LOT ABOUT KISS IN THIS BOOK HAHA.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

women are like apples

Well...i have never and will never disrespect a women in any way but women can be considering as the most unpredictable and the most complicated life that is living in this planet of the Earth!....

Some article i recently read about, their compare a women with the "apple".

Women are like apples

"In the past, single women were a bit looked down since they had no men for themselves. They were even considered spinsters. However, after reading this article, they shall be called ‘apples on top of the tree’.

Women are like apples on tree. The best ones are on the top of the tree.

Men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.

Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy.


So, the apples on top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they’re amazing.

They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree"

thanks to

And then at that morning i quickly search on google about "women are like apples" then my eyes stopped at this very last sentence on one article....

"Men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with."
thanks to

well.. and this i have to comment

In my BIG respect in a women okiee...Maybe the women should accept for what the men really are, not like keep asking him for more, asking him to be something else that women wanted men to be... We got self-esteem and pride to live for too!, how about face the truth and look into each other heart, stop asking for more in each of you, then a lot of different solution will work out perfectly....well hopefully.

I better stop comment on this or else it will turn too very very personal....aiihhh

anyway here is some comments

I think even rotten apples are unique in their way. Women are good in one way or another no matter what they are.

then this person replied...

You make a day shine by your word.
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I understand that to compared the "top of the tree's apples" to woman are quite a thoughtful thinking. But to look down on other "woman" as "rotten apples" are quite cruel.This can make a nice article. But don't you think its a bit "self-absurd" for those "top of the tree's" woman?This is just my thought. I don't really know if it really place others in different tone of emotions. But I guess this is what I got from reading this passage.

this person replied with an interesting thought....

I agree.I don't think married-women are 'rotten apples' as some of them are really good and valuable. Moreover, some 'rotten apples' on the ground are easy to pick, but no one wanna pick them because they are not valuable enough to waste time even a second to pick them up. I haven't married, but never think i m an 'apple on the top'..neither 'rotten apple' because i prefer to be the one who have right to pick, not to be picked.
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The end....